I think the word ‘balance’ is one of the most important words in my life. Finding balance seems to be the biggest challenge and the most fulfilling feeling when once achieved. The definition of balance is ‘a state where things are of equal weight or force’.
What I basically want to say is, that every day in life I try to walk that cord without falling of. I try to keep my balance because when I do not, I will fall of and it will hurt. As I am practicing my balance with my yoga poses, I am also practicing my balance with my health.
There are days that I really need to take a step back and rest. But there are also these days that I just have to get up in the morning and tell myself to get out there and make something out of it, even when I don’t feel well when I get up. I think it is too easy to always let my body win. I have been practicing with reading signs of my body so much that I maybe sometimes overdo it. When I had a lot of seizures I would get extra careful and whenever I would feel the slightest rush in my chest I would go lay down. However, I also had times when I just ‘pushed through’ this feeling and went on with my day. And guess what? It went fine. I believe that with my seizures I have found that balance.
As for the fibromyalgia, I am standing on that cord again, trying to balance my way to the other side. I am still searching and I need help with that, just like I had with my seizures. I sometimes wake up in pain and exhaustion that is too bad to get out of bed. But I also often wake up with pain that can either increase or decrease throughout the day.
It is exactly that balance between the two feelings of taking rest or pushing through that makes having to deal with these conditions a challenge and sometimes extremely hard. But it also means that a day that starts with pain can actually get better. And that gives me the drive to push through whenever I feel even the tiniest sparkle in me that says I can 🙂